Week 16 - My Mother-In-Law

We just came back from Kuching, Sarawak last week. Unfortunately, the reason for us going back was not a happy one. My mother-in-law left us on 3 Jun morning unexpectedly. On Thursday, hubby got call from sister around 4pm that MIL is in emergency is really critical and told him to be on the next flight back. We panicked and checked internet for flights but since it was late, not able to book thru internet.

We droved (more like I 'flew') us to LCCT in our attempt to purchase a ticket at the counter, at that point, any ticket on the next immediately flight will do. We arrived LCCT around 730pm and rushed around like crazy because we are not sure where the ticketing counter is. He must go first tonight no matter what and it being school holiday peak season, hubby was extremely lucky to catch the 950pm flight that will land in Kuching at 11.30pm!

By the time we got his tickets, he can check-in and we went to McD for dinner. Seeing how blurred and worried he was, I told him to go grab a table and I will queue for our food. Blardy LCCT McD (excuse my language), really really really slow. The name is fastfood but it was more than half hour before it was my turn to order (only 3-4 ppl in front of me in the queue but I will keep this for another time).

When I finally got my orders and join my hubby, he have received another call. A really bad one. Doctors are telling his sisters and relatives that they have done their best. My heart dropped....no..too soon! Wait for us! Please let it be time for my husband to see his mom at least one more time. Had to force hubby to eat something because I know he will not be eating properly again for a while...I really wish I go with him! But so many things need to be settled first before I can go..but at least I got my ticket for tomorrow evening..

After he went into the boarding hall, I went home and waited for news. Hubby was asking me to sleep but how could I not knowing....worrying....hoping..praying....wishing yet again that I am there already... By 1am, I got an sms from hubby...mom is on the machine. My heart stopped, tears in my eyes (even now...)

Memories flash thru my mind....images of my MIL whenever I go a visit her. I tell you, my MIL is really unlike others. The stories that I hear about fights between MIL and daughter-in-laws, I was fortunate to have none of that. I might be imagining this but my MIL cared for me like her own daughter. She used to travel alot and wherever she goes, she will definitely buy something for me together with her 2 daughters. It might be that she knows I love her son very much and her son love me but I really think I am very fortunate...

I remember when I just moved to KL with my hubby to start our new family life, I remember she keep reminding hubby that he is bring someone's daughter and he better take good care of me~! When we moved to our own place and because it is apartment, can be rather chilly, she will remind hubby to get me an indoor slipper because I have a stainless steel in my right ankle from previous injury - so that my feet are not pain from the cold!

Sigh..by 545am, hubby sent another sms, my mom is gone... I immediate call him. First thing I asked, when? Then I not able to get much word out or ask for more because I know I will start to cry and I must not cry in front of hubby. I must be strong for him.

All I can think of is my baby will never get the chance to see his/her grandma...The baby that my MIL keep asking hubby, is 'your wife pregnant', 'when want to pregnant' each time he call or she call. I can only thank God again that she knew her grandchild from her son is finally materialising before she passed. We actually wanted to wait till 2nd trimester before announcing to family and friends because of previous incident.Somehow, by twist of fate, hubby told her when I was approx. 2.5 mths pregnant.

Even after passing, she still worries about me because I am the only that dreamt about her. I dreamt that hubby and I dropped his sister at a shop because she need to get something. We were suppose to pick her up after that but we forgot. So had to turn back and in town, we saw MIL in a old style coffee shop, sitting at a round old style marble table on a round old marble stool. MIL was all dressed up as if she is going to the church. Her hair was immaculately styled as it always is whenever she is going out. She was actually having dessert - transparent jelly and tong yuan (glutunious ball). When she was me, she took a spoon of the jelly and told me to eat.

Baby, I really wish you got the chance to meet your daddy's mommy. But I also know that she is definitely watching over you from heaven no matter what happen.....